When I look at my arms, I don’t think strong.
I think not there yet,
I think this weakness is wrong.
I’m a loose thread that has been pulled apart for too long,
I thought maybe if I kept pulling, I would someday manage to forget.
When I look at my arms, I don’t think strong.
My arms are an open canvas, a bleeding song
And I can’t wait for them to get soaked in red, and yet
I think this weakness is wrong.
My fingers tremble, ache, long
For a single blade of color to wash away the regret.
When I look at my arms, I don’t think strong.
When I close my eyes I see flowers blooming like a dying song,
I see carefully written words and a withering silhouette,
I think this weakness is wrong.
When I think strong, I think of shaking hands when I was 16 years old,
Petals cascading from my lashes and the taste of blood, lips wet.
When I look at my arms, I don’t think strong.
I think this weakness is wrong.
L.